Listening, allowing

In a previous blog, The Right Place, I shared a quote found in an unpublished letter of

Mary-Baker-Eddy

“The place you seek is seeking you, the place you need is needing you. Divine Principle brings need and supply together for mutual good. God wisely, intelligently, and lovingly controls, guides, protects, prospers, and blesses this union of [God’s] idea and this joyous activity, work.”   ~ Mary Baker Eddy

Mary Baker Eddy. The quote came to me, as many things come to me: un-requested, in passing and at a time when I needed something (material or information).

I have been pondering, with renewed awe and curiosity, the miraculous-ness of such things coming into my life as I have been recently studying the writings of Joseph Murphy.

In this latest undertaking (studying Murphy’s body of work), I realized that this principle of Good has been quietly and constantly working in my life.

In looking back over my career these past weeks, I suddenly saw the fingerprints of divine guidance all over every job move, decision (even the “bad” ones) and opportunity and I thought of the words written in that letter by Mary Baker Eddy (see photo caption).

Today I am the Director of a department in a large medical center. The department I lead was once known as medical records, but as computers took over healthcare (and lots of other places in society), the name changed to Health Information Management. I did not start out with a desire to work with medical records, or in an administrative role, but it seems, as Mrs. Eddy would say, that the career I sought “was seeking me“.

When I returned to college after serving in the US Navy to continue my education as a medical laboratory professional, I found that the laboratory program was closing and so I had to find another major. The only one at the university that fit with my prior coursework (I didn’t want to start over at square 1) and had any appeal to me was Health Information Management (HIM) so I went into that program.

At graduation, I was sure I wanted to do anything but manage a medical records department, so I moved into data management and analysis. Still certain that I didn’t want to work in a hospital medical records setting, after a few years I took an academic route and ended up as a community college administrator and then a professor of HIM at a university.

After a number of years in academia I decided that I needed to expand my horizons and move into the consulting world that was evolving as healthcare (and many other industries) were rapidly changing. Each time I moved into a new job, I found that after about 3 – 4 years I became restless to the point of being uncomfortable and was ready to move on. For many years I viewed this habit as a flaw; a weakness and I judged myself harshly for it. And yet, in retrospect, divine timing seemed to be at work.

I learned many critical lessons along the way, and added numerous diverse skills to my professional repertoire. When I eventually moved into the career that I had tried to avoid almost since the beginning, I was well-prepared to take the helm of a profession in transition and it seemed that it had all fallen into place by accident.

Today I find myself in a strong position as a seasoned, respected HIM professional with a platform and a voice. I am regularly called upon to share wisdom, mentor others and provide insights that would have been impossible had I moved immediately into a traditional HIM position at graduation. As great waves of change move this profession, I find my experience, advice and counsel being sought out often by those in my field who look at the coming changes and seek guidance, assistance and more and it is this role that I treasure more than any other.

I could not have known more than 20 years ago as I tried to avoid working in medical records that I was preparing (or being prepared) for a career right smack in the middle of medical records/health information management. From this vantage point it looks that the place I sought in terms of a career, was indeed seeking me. The restlessness I would feel after a few years was the Divine nudge that more learning was needed; that complacency was not an option and that there was more work for me to do.

Interestingly, since moving into a full-bodied medical records/HIM position I have had a few instances of “temptation” to move out of this realm and back into consulting or other areas. Each time, though the career move was tempting, that still, small voice inside had other ideas, and I withdrew my name from the list of candidates. I know without a shred of doubt that I am, today, right where I am supposed to be; that the twists and turns and attempts by me to avoid this work have all laid the perfect path for my success. And the lessons for me personally are abundant.

In spiritual studies we often talk about “letting go and letting God” – releasing the outcome to Spirit,…but in practice, we’re not always very good at it. Perhaps it is challenging because it is a subtle action. It’s not like cleaning out a closet, or mowing the grass: it’s a quiet, hard-to-measure energetic perspective that we must take on that allows the Good we desire to move into our lives at its own pace. Meditation helps because it trains us to be inactive and quiet – not an American strength by nature – but it is a challenging practice to achieve (allowing).

In terms of my career, since I stopped running from what seems to be my intended place, more doors have opened, more opportunities have emerged than I could have imagined – and they open with an ease and effortlessness that can only be described as supernatural. I know because I tried to make these kinds of things happen many times along my other career paths and found that forcing this stuff simply doesn’t work.

The larger life lesson taught by my career experience is that when I feel that nudge to move on, or to pass on an offered opportunity – I need to pay attention. When I get uncomfortable in a role to the point of irritation, it is a strong message that something bigger and better lies beyond. That which I seek, the desire of my heart, lies beyond where I am standing and it is seeking me, which is why I feel the discomfort.

This can be difficult – especially if we’ve invested time, energy, passion and our personal imprint on something. We feel the nudge that it’s time to move on, but we fight it. We use every spiritual practice in the book to make things fit, to find the peace and to force the perfection to materialize in the place WE think we need to be. But in doing so, we miss the most profound and productive spiritual practice sitting, like the proverbial elephant, in the middle of the room: listening and allowing.

It’s amusing to me that my career path has been so instrumental in teaching me a deep spiritual Truth, but I am grateful as I now realize that the abundance of Good that continues to unfold for me professionally as I allow and surrender, is also seeking me in the other areas of my life.

I look forward to seeing where this path leads, and know – thanks to real evidence in my own life – that place I seek is seeking me; the place I need is needing me and that Divine Principle is always bringing need and supply together for mutual Good as the Infinite Spirit wisely, intelligently, and lovingly controls, guides, protects, prospers, and blesses this union of the Divine’s idea and this joyous activity and work.

And so it is.

(C) 2018 Practitioner's Path

2 thoughts on “Listening, allowing

  1. Amen! Thank you Rebecca as I prepare for a work week managing data for the Heart/Lung Transplant program at the same place that released me from my trained profession. How strange and interesting. I learned the art and practice of surrender many years ago working the steps of a recovery program. Step 3 is the surrender step and right where I was when when that program was suggested to me by a biology instructor/advisor. I have been reflecting and so grateful for the experiences and opportunities the profession gave me on a multitude of levels that I would have never imagined including my current position. I to get squirrelly after a while and did several other things while in that profession. The list is long.
    This all reminds of a book I read many years ago, “Power vs Force”. Similar concepts regarding the power of allowing.
    I’m feeling tonight like I would like to be back in the OR doing cases a few days a week or some aspect of that profession. There have been many lessons along this journey and I stay open to the nudges that propel me. All of this I will say looking back 20+ years ago I would have never imagined. Didn’t even know it existed . So as Ernest Holmes said “stay open at the top” , and the AA Big Book states, “ as we trudge this road of happy destiny”.
    I’m grateful that you are part of my journey. I respect and admire you as so many others do. Love you girl!

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